It’s 4 in the morning, just another day where thoughts over
powered the sleep and I’m up. I really like the silence in the morning hours,
it’s calms me down, makes me think and kind of ponder upon things that gets
lost in the rush of the day. So I’ve been seeing and reading a lot of ‘what
would I tell my 20 year old self’ stuff a lot, almost like it’s a message for
me to tell my younger self (18-20ish) what to do, be prepared for etc. In short
this the now-me talking to the 20yr old-me.
12. There will be many new people and new relationships in
your life. They will become more important than the older ones.
11. You will make better friends and in fact the best
ones are yet to come! Some of them may not be of your age group at all and some
from the family, but you know you can be yourself with them and that is friendship
all about.
10.
Don’t even think about quitting this job now, I
know it’s harsh, making you go mental. But believe me, you need it so much. The
journey or the places you go, may not always be fun or to your liking, but it
will become your identity! Just hold on, you’re going to be Ok.
9. You will change homes, I know you don’t like it
a bit but be prepared you’re not going to love all of them. But each house will
teach you something and will make you do something rebellious for your own good.
Also you will live in a building you always fancied, the place will be good,
but not the people and you won’t have the time and energy to do all those
things you thought you will do there. So don’t wait for the right place to do a
certain thing just start about NOW!
8. This little fellow you got home is going to give
you so many beautiful and fun memories. His first love will be mom and not you
silly. He’ll grow old and sick and one day you will have to sign up saying that
he’s not fit to live anymore. You will never know if that’s right or not but
believe that he’s in a happier place. You just don’t stop watching the rain
with him in the night; it will become your fondest memory of him.
7. He and you will share a totally different bond
in the future. You two will discuss maids and chores as well. He will not be
like how he is today and the same will be the case with her. They will grow
much older, older than they are now, but their love becomes more evident. You
will have some heart-warming moments with them. Spend time with them; that’s
all the childhood you’ll ever get to hear about yourself!
6.
This irritating person you just fought with, is
going to be your bestest friend ever. You will be so so glad that you’re there
for each other; the best gift your parents ever gave you is him! Yes you’ve got
to believe it, not kidding! In the middle of all the chaos, you’ll often find
him to be your oasis.
5.
Your love will only grow for this Man, you’ll go
on to become his mother and a friend apart from being his daughter. You will
see him win and lose and will continue to learn from him through all of it. And
you will have to see him all alone sleeping in his room or doing things by
himself alone – it will make your heart cringe and you might feel like it’ll
tear you apart, but just be with him, talk to him, wish him well and tell him
that you love him at every opportunity, go out more often as family, as one day
you’ll have only him as a father & a mother.
4.
You just said yes to the most amazing person! He’s
going to make you cry, laugh, get all teary eyed, listen to your non-stop
ramblings, keep you sane and wise, gives you the best advice and as much as you
hate to admit – the guy’s almost always right. Most importantly he will make
you feel better about yourself, than you do so yourself. You will often find
searching for him in the crowds and when you find him, you will know home is
where he is!
3.
There will be a baby, much much sooner than you’ve
planned. She will be the best thing that will ever happen to you, you will not
be ready for her at all in the beginning, but she’ll be the one who will hold
you together. She will give you a purpose to stay alive. She will keep you so
busy that you will miss all this freedom and doing nothing phases. Your life revolves around her and through her
you will find the greatest love & joy of your life – her!
2.
You’ll experience pain you’ve never even
imagined before and through all that your only solace will be that, you were
there with her, not just in the last of the days but throughout her journey! Good
you said no, that’s Ok, you are where you’re supposed to be. Tell her now that you
love her, she might not even understand or reply back after few years. Feel the
warmth every time she hugs you, as it doesn’t seem so real in dreams. Cook for
her, take her out a lot, just don’t free your hand when she’s holding it tight,
don’t shout at her, sleep beside her, talk to her a lot, tell her that you
actually love her more than you show, tell her that she is the best, enjoy what’s
she’s cooked for you, take a lot of pictures, just hold her hand and hold it
for a long long time. Cherish every second with her, when she’s this fun and
crazy. Make her laugh a lot, make her feel special and loved. Learn from her
everything you want to, she’ll teach you much more anyways. Just take in everything
about her, write about her. Listen to her when she’s talking about her mother, and
understand her perspective, her pain. Just live with her like it’s your last
day on earth. You will lose her too soon and you or your life will never be the
same again.
1.
Remember life is about change. As much as you
hate it, you will have to accept it and you will find yourself saying that – ‘Change
is the only constant’. You will go through a lot, probably more than you’ve
ever imagined, but the endurance will teach you so much. You will often find
yourself in a cloud of thoughts that will make you wake up from your sleep and
write about it, but just remember anything that doesn’t kill you, will only
make you strong. You might as well, take a stronger step towards your future, a
stronger place for all the people who matter in your heart, a stronger way to say
No – when you can’t take it, a stronger will to chase your dreams, a stronger
mind to bring up a strong little girl and a stronger Chai to begin another day!